meaning, etc.

Christmas eve (midnight) 1948.Wellington hotel, New York:
"I wish give real Christmas present.

Imagine Christ. Somewhere in space is." (Mr Gurdjieff forms an oval with both hands.)

"Make contact. Not to center,but to outside, periphery.

Draw from there, draw in, I.

Settle in you, Am.

Do every day.

Wish to become Christ.

Become, Be."

how can anything be both "new" *and* "improved"?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vT7zCWtaa9w

the ending is not the same as the beginning.

http://www.spin.com/articles/zbigniew-karkowski-dead-obituary/

I lived with Karkowski for nearly two years, when he first came to Holland. we did not part on good terms. actually, I was arrested, and he went to hospital. be that as it may, I would never wish such a painful death on anyone.

without going into specifics about who did what to whom, it is striking that the obituaries are all wrong. they contain numerous inaccuracies which unfortunately, I am in a unique position to comment on.

the written work Karkowski did was all taken, pretty much verbatim, from books he loaned from me. he joked about "stealing", because that's what "great artists do". his "studies" with the famous composers which have been trotted out were no more than a few hours at best. he was also a closet gay, who had "experimented" with such an orientation in Paris, but "gave it up" (his words) because he realised that most of the people he wished to be in contact with would not approve. that's what he told me, anyway.

his wikipedia page edits me out. he was involved in several projects with me.

my first meeting with him was a phone call, out of the blue - my number in Amsterdam had been given to him by C.M. Von Hausswolff. we went to some bar, where he proceeded to get very drunk, and told me how he was milking the Swedish state for money, and that it was a "paradise", as far as getting funds allocated to artists. he also spoke of how he was conning a vast amount of money from the Swedish government writing an opera that was never to be performed.

shortly thereafter, he moved to Holland, and began a long-ish association with STEIM, where he took up the apartment at the back of the building. it was this association that gave us access to their studio facilities, and that is where all of the collaboration we ever did was done. except for the "Cosmic Trigger" CD, which was recorded at Chalmers University on a Sunday afternoon, while Karkowski played a racing pigeons game on an early Mac while the rest of the work was done.

he was a superb communicator in some senses. people often accuse me of arrogance and related epithets, but to see Karkowski in full flow was to witness a master of the art. have a look at the interviews on the appalling bootleg tape of phauss/karkowski/bilting. if anyone was arrogant, it was him.

he was also very funny, and had a great laugh. this is what I will always remember.

but he was a rotten person. truly. he did some terrible things to the mother of his child, and to quite a few other people I know. not to mention me.

no, don't speak ill of the dead, they say. I always imagined he would outlive me. and he would have been just as castigating (but less pretentious) about me.

Karkowski would never go towards the light, because he would never listen to anyone. and that was his greatest failing. he thought he knew it all. he was as insecure and messed up as anyone. but he would not deal with it.

and now, perhaps he will.

I loved him, and I hated him. you can't ask better than that.

[addendum]

"Zbigniew died aged 55, just six weeks later on Thursday December 12th in the jungles of Peru where he had travelled seeking treatment with the Shaman healers of the Shipibo."

all I can say is that this, to me, shows his fear. originally, I was told he has asked that his body be "dumped in the jungle". wouldn't that have been such a macho, radical, devil-may-care über-nihilist thing to do? 

if he went to all the trouble and expense of trying to save his carcass, he was still clinging.

speaking of which.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=af4UmddwYjI

thanks to lovely assistant Monika.

what we didn't do on our holidays.

http://www.moontrix.com/en/visuals-photos/the-machine-started-to-flow-into-a-vein-vol-35-november-9-2013

doomed to repeat it.

1978? Peoples Theatre, Newcastle, Ben Ponton (Zoviet France) and Andrew McKenzie (Hafler Trio)

we'd be so glad we vocalised.

http://www.moontrix.com/en/blog/the-machine-started-to-flow-into-a-vein-vol-35

now with small h3o voice piece in the web page's player. hmmmmm.

and this:

http://www.mumsnet.com/Talk/chicken_keepers/1279641-Why-Are-My-Chickens-Whistling/AllOnOnePage

if you don't get the reference, never mind.

why not ask?

http://www.fylkingen.se/node/1819

a spledid time, etc, etc.

it continues (sorry, Graham.)

http://www.moontrix.com/en/blog/the-machine-started-to-flow-into-a-vein-vol-35

this way.

http://www.kulturos-miestas.lt/lt/dienorastis/anyksciuose-eksperimentines-muzikos-projektai-audiovizualines-keistenybes

gorgeosity and delightfulness abound.

http://www.supernatant.net/simply-superior-workshop-performance/

the wonders do not cease.

http://trapart.net/books/the-hafler-trio/

indulgence permitted and encouraged, as these manifestations move us ever forwards to an academy of Complementary Education.

enormous thanks to all concerned for the facilitation of all matters.

product. eventually.

http://trapart.net/books/the-hafler-trio/

[more later]

23 copies of this, the hard cover.

500 of these, the soft cover.

this is an event of great magnitude for me. I hope it is for you.

may contain nuts.

http://carlabrahamsson.blogspot.com/2013/09/roving-report-2013-35.html

herein, please find announcement (or even the herald) of coming good.

things to make and do.

http://www.late.lv/2013%20programme.doc

nothing to be said so I will say it.

I have just found out, unbelievably late, that Kristian Kotarac, of Nextera passed away earlier this year.

apart from the shock of such a loss of such a good and wonderful man, I am saddened at his early exit.

Kristian was generous of word, deed, and soul. he helped me in numerous ways, in many capacities, and his entire being was suffused with care and attention to detail.

he was a friend. a rare combination of someone with a conscience and yet able to run a record label. he lives on as an example to aspire to, in all sorts of ways.

I will miss him, a great deal.

go towards the light, Kristian.

love

./andrew.

hats in air, trebles all round, may the circle be unbroken.

pleasure is present in presenting:

http://agency.thecentrifuge.co.uk/the-hafler-trio/

more.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dqQl_WxZAVU

delay.

https://vimeo.com/52880082

large rock up a hill.

it seems like the USA has decided that the "''''''" workshop and performance is "impossible". amazing, incredible, and  sad.

what I wish to do is spread as much of the ideas, structures, components, practices and wonders that I have accumulated over now 50 years (yes, you all forgot my birthday, thanks - two birthday wishes for a 50 year birthday - now we know what time it is) - so you don't want to know. bad. not good. sad.

yet more goings on.

http://www.moontrix.com/lt/blogas

http://www.moontrix.com/en/blog/the-hafler-trio-five-days-art-workshops-in-anyksciai-with-participation-of-the-famous-british-artist-andrew-mckenzie

https://www.facebook.com/events/244174009057478/

do come and take part in Lithuania.

flow, flowed.

https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.10151434031686902.1073741825.69454091901&type=1

and here

https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.547200431996944.1073741826.221572637893060&type=1

and the words that are not spoken...

http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=10151434033786902&set=a.10151434031686902.1073741825.69454091901&type=3&theater

http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=10151434033921902&set=a.10151434031686902.1073741825.69454091901&type=3&theater

http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=10151434033916902&set=a.10151434031686902.1073741825.69454091901&type=3&theater

http://www.flickr.com/photos/british-council-latvia/sets/72157633333350085/

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8d_ja_Fjy_g&list=PLnc6Pxix262Z9aLsSkJb_eE9MM6H6Yp31

something more for those up somewhere.

http://trondheimkunstmuseum.no/events/konsert-andrew-mckenzie-2/

slight delay, more babble.

http://vimeo.com/52880082